I am not a fan of change...and by big fan, I mean I hate it. I get into my little comfort zone and never want to leave it. I have had major change issues through out my life. The first one that I can remember was right before leaving for college. The closer that my move away date came, the more I thought about taking a year off. The next major one was when I got my internship in California. I was super excited initially when I got it, but the more I thought about leaving my friends for the summer and living with people that I didn't know in a place I had never been, I started to think about trying to find an internship closer to home. Looking back at both of these incidents I know that I have made it through in one piece ready for my next adventure.
So, my next adventure is laying at my feet. I have moved away from Cedar Falls, gotten a new job and now reside with Trent and his parents. This is a major change to say the least. Today I moved most of my clothing down to Huxley and unpacked my room at the Quick homestead. I also drove down to Downtown so I have some clue of where I am going tomorrow. I think that all the stress from the move and new job got to me because I snapped at Trent on the drive because he was confusing me on what turns to take when. I didn't realize how many one-ways there were downtown. I have a feeling it might take a while to get my bearings.
I feel as though I am on the verge of a panic attack and have to keep telling myself to breath in and out on a regular basis. I have picked out my outfit for tomorrow, found my route to work and am now getting ready to pack a lunch. It is Pre-School all over again except with better clothes and hair. Or I guess it could also be compared to moving away and having to start a different school.
I miss my small apartment and my friends, but I know that this is a step in the right direction and it's only a matter of time before PoOf nIgHt V is in Des Moines! ♥ =)
